Best June Ever – Week Three

Last week was Week Three of “dating myself” and striving to get better and challenge my health of body, mind and spirit.  It’s hard to keep the best attitude when you are lying in bed sick for 5 days, but I did my best to make it what I could. I guess it was more of a week to reflect on what I’m left with when it’s just me at home with my thoughts and nothing else. No work, no creativity- just pure rest. That’s tough for me! Sometimes I like to do it all and go go go but it’s definitely telling that my body shut down when it did…oof. Balance. I need to remember that. That’s what I seek. My body tells me to slow down a lot and I have to learn to listen and not be so extreme. So, I’m trying to be thankful for that forced time of rest. I had a lot of time to think and it was good for me. And now I shall write about it all. 😉

There was a conversation I had in this past week that has been replaying in my head. We were talking about working hard in everything you do and finding joy in everything you do. As my gym Mark Fisher Fitness says, “How you do anything, is how you do everything,” which I’ve definitely tried to adapt as my personal mantra. He was saying he heard this story about a woman who worked her way to the top of her corporate job and now was one of the most highest paid women. And when she was asked how she got where she was, her response was that she had purely enjoyed EVERY SINGLE JOB she had worked. Whether it was McDonalds or her next job at Burger King, or whatever job came next as she worked her way up from the bottom. She learned everything she could from each of those jobs- took what was valuable, truly enjoyed learning from others, didn’t settle and moved on to the next challenge of a job. That work ethic and joy for life is inspiring. It hit something in me that rings true with what I’m trying to aspire to in life right now. In the way that I want to be the same person I am in my theater career as I am at my restaurant job, as I am with my friends and loved ones, and as I am with trying to achieve the best health in body, mind and spirit. I seek to approach everything with a joy and open-mind of learning and getting better in whatever it is I’m doing. It’s a challenge but it’s a good challenge. I believe everything is connected and when you can get all these things in alignment, I think that it’s a better chance to feel more content with life.

So, this is my little plea to put out into the world as I approach the last week of my Best June Ever.

I seek to have a hard-working spirit in whatever it is that I do so that I can learn and get better every day. I want to treat my survival jobs with the passion I have for the theater, reminding myself that the money I make supports my passion and supports my dream, so I should treat it with the same kind of love and enjoyment. And I also want that passion and love to start with me. Putting myself first and treating myself with the same love and care that I have for others. I work to challenge myself and not be afraid to push past what I fear in order to get where I want to be- in any area of life. Career, love, relationships, family, spirituality, fitness and health. This is what I seek.

Now, back to business! Even though I was too sick to take myself out for dates last week- I managed to do what I could to make myself happy. I bought flowers, I made a veggie soup out of the bone marrow broth my sister made me, I painted my nails, took walks in the sun when I could, made a huge chicken sausage/saurkraut sandwich on my last day of refined carbs 🙂 and made tons of Green Superfood Smoothies. Below is the proof.

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One more week left of June! I’m going to give it all I got! I already have a date with myself planned for Thursday night. More to come. Onward I go!

 

Best June Ever – Week Two

Week Two of my Best June Ever was a lot of fun and also a little challenging. I have been working a lot and there was a lot going on and it was a little harder to find me time where I could purely enjoy myself. But I did my best and succeeded! After all, I’m the one making up the rules! So I win! 🙂

My other main focus for this month, other than “dating myself” is to get in the best shape I can possibly get in- they kind of go hand in hand in my eyes. To challenge myself when I feel like giving up. To inspire myself to keep pushing through even when I feel like I’m not where I want to be. I’ve been taking cycling class and my amazing Mark Fisher Fitness classes and have gone to my own gym. Part of the challenge is I’m learning to find the balance between challenging myself and resting. I got sick yesterday and am now in bed for a few days and I’m wondering if it’s just happenstance- which it could be- or I need to give my body a little more lovin’ and rest. It’s all about learning what our bodies can and can’t do. And this is my first truly committed exploration so I have to allow patience even though it can get frustrating.

Here are a few pictures to track my week of spending good quality time with myself.

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That kale salad is a staple in my diet these days with crunchy sprouts, pumpkin seeds, daiya mozzarella, chickpeas and balsamic vinegar . I love it! I’m trying to prepare more meals at home right now and then eat out on my balcony since the sun is shining!

I took myself on a date to Bullets Over Broadway last Thursday and loved an evening at theater with myself and crave many more nights like this.

On Sunday, I took a very hard cycling class and on my long stroll home I stopped at the Astoria Flea Market and found an awesome pressed juice stand. I just love the glass jars and straws! And on the back I saw this quote that as I was walking, I was like, “Yes, yes, yes!”

“Our mission is to inspire a balanced, active and invigorating lifestyle…” and then, “Restore, Rejuvenate and Embrace Life.”

Alright! I’ll strive for that too! Onto Week Three. Sick or not sick, I will keep taking caring of myself, keep nurturing myself, keep trying to find the balance and find quality me time. Onward!

 

Best June Ever – Week One

As I have announced in my last post, this past week was the start to my month of dating myself. The verdict? I have realized I am pretty spectacular! 😉 SO KIDDING! Yuck! No, it has been a really great week. I’ve been taking extra care of myself, really focusing on doing things to make my days full and happy and making myself a priority. It made me realize that if I keep taking the time to do this, I can really see myself getting better and getting the healthy things I want in my life. I can picture myself having the life that I want, the relationship that I want, the career that I want, the body I want and the community that I want. All in due time, of course. I just have to keep going, keep working hard and taking this precious time that I have for me to be the best self I can be. I am on a mission!

I kept track of the things that I did that made me happy this week so I wouldn’t forget what it all felt like.

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On the first day I bought myself some flowers to start it off right! I’d like to add this into my life more often!

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Had a mid-afternoon gluten free beer and Kale/Chickpea/Pumpkin Seed salad on my balcony in the gorgeous sun!

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I took an amazing workout dance class with a lovely gal named Erin West and then I went on an evening walk and I happened upon these amazing healthy food stands. Had fresh Coffee Cherry Kombucha ON TAP, and two rice paper wraps with fresh veggies and amazing sauces. I sat on a bench and I ate and just took in the amazing evening.

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On my way home after my Day One of this making June the best June it can be adventure. Feelin’ good!

I won’t chart out my every step with pictures like I did that first day, but below are some favorite times I had with myself last week.

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I took myself to my favorite Bare Burger and sat at the bar and had sweet potato french fries and a Gluten Free Ginger Beer before work. Shhhh!

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Put on some good music and got cooking! Sauteed some zucchini and blanched broccoli and cauliflower so I can have some snacks in the fridge. Trying to be disciplined. 🙂

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I stopped by Duane Reade and found tons of crafty goods on sale. I’ll save the outcome of this little art project for next week! I’m still working on it. Just trying to do everything I can to keep motivated.

Onto Week Number Two. I’ve already got a couple dates with myself in my calendar. I’m so looking forward to them!

Onward!

 

Creating This Month To Be The Best It Can Be

I haven’t been posting my weekly posts in preparation for what I really want this journey to focus on. I just needed to take a little space to see clearly. I was really enjoying my weekly projects I put myself up to and it inspired me with new thoughts and new growth. The project I began after my last post about Clearing Out The Clutter in my living space was to take a morning walk when I get up every day. This expanded into more than a week and for about the last month, I have been doing that every morning because it has been very beneficial to me. It has been giving me a clarity to start the day off on the right note. It gives me space to think about how I want my day to be and what I want to get out of it. 

A lot of life has happened in this last month and it has given me a new focus for this June that I will now write about. 

What is it you ask? Well, this month I will be focusing on dating myself. 🙂 Every day, every moment I will be here for me. Cheesy, yes? Well, that’s me! I’m the biggest cheese ball you will ever meet. But I do what works for me. And it makes sense with everything that has happened in my life up to this point. I’ve realized I really love taking care of people and being there for others unconditionally and loving them with all of me. And then I get to a point where I think- what do I have left for me? But what if I focus all that on myself for the first time in my life? I deserve some unconditional lovin’ too! It’s finally time for that kind of healing to begin. I need it so I don’t give all of myself away and find myself lost and confused. 

This past week, I have been in preparation for a June that is going to rock. I did a three day juice cleanse and now I am going to get my body in shape and feel strong and healthy and really love this body I’m in. The cleanse felt great! I combined it with not wearing making for those three days plus the day before and the day after- even to my work place and out with friends. A few years ago, this wouldn’t be heard of – I was so self-concious. I’m quite a bit more confident now but it still feels a little vulnerable to not have that shield but I really enjoyed it. I took a picture every day to log it so I can remember how it felt. (The first picture was right before a crazy intense fitness day in prep for the juicing and I was feeling a bit fiesty!) And it’s all inspired me to not wear makeup more often! Who cares!!! No one gives a crap!!! And the juice cleanse- I think I’m going to add mini cleanses in my June adventure somehow. TBD.

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Proof I went makeup free and I’m on my way to getting more confident each day! And the pictures with the earphones? I am most definitely listening to Bridges Of Madison County. Soundtrack to my life these days. Get on it! 

I will check in weekly and share my daily dates with myself! Now, I’m off to buy myself some flowers. 😉 I’m so not kidding. Happy June!

 

Clearing Out The Clutter

This week’s project was to clear out the clutter in my room and create space for a peaceful environment for myself. To also go through all my clothes and give away what I don’t wear. I made some progress but I didn’t do as well as I wanted to do. I am very attached to my things- even the things I don’t use or wear. It’s also such a big job, that I didn’t finish it so I am going to break my one week rule and keep it going for another week. To create a nice, organized, non-cluttered room is a lot of work and it gets messy before it gets cleaner which is depressing! But I want to make it feel like it’s my safe space and I want to love it. And for the most part…I do. It’s typically always “neat” and has a good vibe that I like…but there are piles of paper I need to go through and tons of clothes I don’t wear and lots of things I don’t use anymore in boxes under my bed that just can be cleared out. And since I’m in the process of getting rid of all the toxic things in my life, I feel like it goes along with my theme perfectly. There is no big realization or something hugely inspiring to write about this project that has hit me quite yet. So, I’ll just leave it at that for now and wait till the end of my second week of this project to share my in depth thoughts about it.

Since this journey is about making the most out of every day and learning from it and writing about it, I will leave you with a few things I learned this week. I’m warning you that I’m very delirious in this moment as I am on very little sleep from a busy schedule, so they aren’t deep nor are they profound- but it’s all I have left in me for the night and I needed to get my writing every Monday goal in. 🙂

1. Don’t order takeout Thai food when you want to get things done at night. It only causes procrastination and sleepiness.

2. It’s easy to lose count of your drinks when you are in the company of amazing people…It’s distracting. Beware. 

3. Don’t wait to workout until the late evening…otherwise there will be no working out. Whatsoever. 

That’s all I got. Ha! Now onto my second week of clearing out the clutter! Onward! 

 

 

 

 

It’s Enough!

My original goal for this blog was to focus on one inspiring project a week which would equal writing one weekly post reflecting on it. Well…all of a sudden last week has passed by and…umm…where the hell did all of my days go? So busy, so overwhelmed, so many emotions, fitting everything in, running around, trying to be at my best and then oh no – I forgot about my commitment to work on a weekly project and I started to feel like a failure during what should be an inspiring journey. I began downhill spiraling thinking… I missed this week and if someone asks me about it I won’t have anything I’m working on and I’ll seem lazy and that I don’t finish what I start and I’m irresponsible and I started this blog for no reason, it’s stupid, pointless… And well, you get my point- my mind raced on and on…until I caught myself and told myself to STOP that crap! Haha! And yes…I spoke that out loud to myself. 🙂 This may seem a bit of a dramatic reaction for such a small thing- but I’ve noticed the same type of thinking keeps repeating itself and is becoming “a thing” that I’m realizing I need to work on. I am the only one getting in my way when I think like that. Last week was one of the busiest, most challenging and exciting weeks of my life and just getting through it was a huge project in itself. It’s easy to get down on myself for not being enough or not doing enough. I’m learning that my standards I put on myself are MUCH more harsh than what I think other people’s standards of myself is. Why does this happen? At the end of the day, I am left with my mind and my body and I should be on my own side- for my benefit and happiness! Why am I my own worst enemy when I need to be my own cheerleader? That sounds so cheesy and cliche. But, it kinda rings true to me in this moment, so I’m going to run with it!! (After all, my life is a bit of a Hallmark movie…)

This all became very present today as I discovered today is the day I usually write and I felt like I had absolutely nothing to share. But when I got past all that nonsense, I realized there are some points in your life where just getting through a day, a week, a month, a year, or a few years is ENOUGH. It’s good- it’s more than good!

So, this past week’s project (even though I didn’t know it as it was happening) was to just get through the week! And it was enough. I did get through it. And I’m alive and well. I may have many more of those types of weeks- I know I will. And I will work on being okay with just getting through. This journey is my own and I’m creating it, so there’s no need to bully myself or create unrealistic standards when I will never be perfect no matter how hard I try. I will embrace being imperfect and just keep going and allowing it all to be enough. Onward. 

 

Time To Get Creatively Disciplined

For those of you just catching up with the blog, I have officially decided I’m putting myself up to weekly projects to focus on. There are so many things I want to add into my life. Such a long list of how to make life more full that it’s so easy to get overwhelmed and then end up not doing anything but sitting on the couch and eating potato chips. Which I have done many, many times before. The Salt and Pepper Krinkle cut ones. Oh boy. Yum! BUT if I break each goal into weekly projects, seeing how it feels to add those things to my life for that week, I’m hoping the ones that I really enjoy will stick because I at least will experience what it feels like to do them. I can do anything for a week, right?

This weeks project was about focusing on taking some time each day to work on something creative towards my career. I aimed for about an hour or more each day. Yes, what I do for a living is creative, but sometimes it’s hard to be disciplined all the time when you are at home in your own space. There are so many distractions. But, I want to grow in this area and make sure I’m getting better and doing the work that I am in control of.

I found that if I set an allotted amount of time aside during the day to be productive, I’ll do more and get more accomplished than if I just say, “I want to be more creatively disciplined in life,” and then I’ll spend a lot less time devoted to that because of how vague that goal is. Which has happened a lot in the past with me. It’s a lesson I have learned before but am re-learning.

The daily practice this week helped me stay focused and honestly made me happier during the day. I think it was because I was left with a feeling accomplishment. And looking back at the week, I feel more responsible and that my time was used wisely- which is a great feeling and not always common with me!

The question now is, I was able to do this for a week…but how do I add it into my life all the time now? I have some ideas, but I won’t answer this question just yet. I’m going to let myself go through these weeks and slowly discover that. Let everything process. But, that is the ultimate goal!

My favorite quote of all time that I like to remind myself of is from one of my favorite books by Rilke called Letters To A Young Poet. It kept playing in my head during this week’s project.

“Being an artist means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree which doesn’t force it’s sap. Which stands confidently in the storms of spring unafraid summer may not come. It does come. But it only comes to those who are patient. Who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast. I learn it every day of my life, with pain I am grateful for. Patience is everything.”

Onward!