To start off this journey, this past week I decided to write down a lesson I had learned at the end of each day. Before I went to bed at night (or lets be honest, the morning after on the really late nights…), I sat on my couch and took some quiet time to sit and reflect on what I had gotten out of the day. Since my search right now is to not let time pass without learning something from it and growing from it, it was really interesting to take the time to do this. Some nights, I did it begrudgingly. But, by the end of this week I naturally started thinking like this without feeling like it was an assignment. Here’s what I came up with:
Tuesday, April 1st (Day I launched my blog): Do something you are scared of and do it authentically. And be proud of yourself for doing it.
April 2nd: Be there for others but take care of yourself first and foremost. Don’t give all of yourself away.
April 3rd: As someone who spends a lot of time being alone and independent, don’t underestimate the loving power to ask the supportive and trustworthy people in your life to surround you at the times you need them the most. All it takes is to ask. Sometimes you can’t do it on your own. Stop being so stubborn.
April 4th: Don’t count on others to confirm that you are being who you are supposed to be, doing what you are supposed to do, saying what you are supposed to say and feeling what you are supposed to feel. Just be it, do it, say it, feel it, trust yourself and be confident. Not everyone is going to be a fan of yours. That is totally okay. Keep being you.
April 5th: Stay focused on myself, my goals, my growth, my responsibility and becoming whole. Do not backtrack. Keep moving forward and don’t get distracted. Find ways to help myself remember this each day. I’m not missing out on anything if I do this. I am only gaining.
April 6th: Reach out and surround myself with people I know will love me, will support me, will validate me, will be excited for me, will not judge me and will celebrate me. And always, always do the same for them.
April 7th: I realize today is April 7th, and I usually reflect on the day in the evening, but I didn’t sleep all night so I had a lot of thinking to do! Today’s lesson is to take better care of myself. Nurture my body and my mind in everything I do. Make wise choices with my health and fitness and always have some kind of knowledge coming in and always have something creative to work on. Live each day doing this. Ask myself every morning, “How can I do this a little better today?” This is very hard to do. And also hard to remember to do each day. I may fail, but I want to try and keep trying.
It’s intriguing how similar these statements are- how they are all connected in some way. It’s really true that you learn something one day and need to relearn the same thing in a different way just days later. I guess it means we never stop learning. Or I just have a severe problem with getting things to stick! Ha! Can’t I just reflect on these things and then all of a sudden, I’m a master of them? I know, stupid question…totally kidding…but I’m kind of serious… 😉
I guess I now have to ask myself, “What are the underlying themes here?” “What does it all come down to?” “What can I learn from this past week?”
To sum it up for myself: I need to keep focused on myself and surround myself with the people who truly, genuinely care about me. I need to be confident in who I am and own that each day without being ashamed. Also, I need to not look for validation and just keep moving forward and doing my best. And take time each morning to ask myself, “How can I do this a little better today?”
Damn. That’s a lot. I’ll work on it! Now, I have to think of next week’s project…Onward!